First Week & Three Pounds Down


I finished my first week of Weight Watchers and weighed myself on Wednesday. To my delight, I lost three pounds! Now I know in the grand scheme of things three pounds is a drop in a lake, but it’s a start!

In the first week I didn’t cheat, use all of my extra weekly allowed points or forget to track a single item. Although not everything I ate was healthy for me, I still kept to the overall guidelines of eating just 39 Weight Watchers points worth of food per day … Or 39 plus a few of the weekly allowance if necessary. So by definition of the rules of the program, I succeeded. Future mini goals will incorporate using the Fit Bit I purchased and incorporating exercise. Slow down me! One step at a time.

My goal for this week is simple: use fewer of my weekly extra allowance. Yes, yes my overall goal is to lose a couple of pounds this week as well, but in an effort to achieve that my mini goal is to adhere even closer to that strict daily allowance.

The usually most difficult part of any person’s week for dieting is right around the corner: the weekend. For me, however, it shouldn’t be to rough because I work all day Saturday and can easily plan my breakfast, lunch and snacks without having access to any extras. I’m hoping to spend some time playing outside at the playground or park with my daughter as well this weekend. Each time we go I try to be more involved than the last time which helps me burn calories while we both have a great time. Thank goodness for the weather in the Southwest and being able to spend time outside when other parts of the country are still struggling with winter weather.

Alright, well there are only a couple of hours remaining until my daughter and husband get home and I still have several chores to tackle. I’m happy to be home early today because I can actually spend some time making dinner for us. On the menu for dinner: garlic and basil orzo with chicken. Not only do both my husband and I enjoy it, but my daughter devours it like chocolate! I seriously can’t wait for dinner.


Tuesday Test Day


I thought it was hard going to work and being on a diet. When you sit at a desk and stare at a computer all day long, one way to pass the time is to snack. That’s part of how I let myself get into this mess. On top of the boredom-eating there’s the perpetual treat table and celebrating of everything from birthdays and new hires to major sporting events and springtime. Now don’t get me wrong, my company shows how much they care and appreciate their employees to no end. I’ve never worked for a company before that gave so much back on all levels, and I am truly appreciative, but oftentimes that giving back is in the form of food!

For example, yesterday while I was sorting through my emails (as we all do on Monday mornings), I read through an email that congratulated our department for collecting the most items in a fundraiser. For doing the best (in a quad-state, thousands of employees company) we get “gourmet sub sandwiches,” sodas and brownies this Friday. Now, what exactly will make these sandwiches gourmet? I’m not sure, but I know it’s not on my Weight Watchers plan. Last Friday as I was leaving work an email blast was sent out stating that pizza was available on the other side of the floor because they “grotesquely over-ordered.” The extra food is everywhere! I skipped the pizza on Friday and went home to have dinner with my family. This coming Friday I’m planning on bringing my lunch and snacks, like I have been the past couple of weeks, and praying my self-control stays strong!

But I digress, as this isn’t about last week or three days from now, but instead is about how awfully tempting and difficult today has been for me! Today is my first day home from work when it isn’t a normal weekend with family bustling about. Every few weeks each of us in my department works a weekend day and in exchange we get a day off in the middle of the normal workweek. Today is my “comp day” and that means I’m home doing various chores around the house and relaxing. Normally it’s also a day where I splurge on lunch grabbing something that I don’t get too often or I’m craving. Usually it’s a full-length sub worth two days of Weight Watchers Points (of course I wasn’t actually tracking points when I ate them) or a large McDonalds meal or something with another friend if they were off work. On top of that I always snacked while at home whether I’m sitting on the couch watching TV or folding laundry. So today has been my first big test. 

I woke up and got my daughter ready for school and out the door with my husband. From there I had some fruit and felt satisfied. I even thought to myself that today would be a piece of cake. The real temptation came a couple of hours later when I headed out of the house with my dogs for their annual check-ups at the vet. Driving by various fast food restaurants and cafes where I could have easily grabbed a delicious, fattening breakfast sandwich or smoothie (not the healthiest of kinds) was difficult. Although I didn’t have to physically keep myself from turning the steering wheel into one of those restaurant’s parking lots, I did have to consistently remind myself Why I was watching my food intake and How stopping would affect my overall goals. Have no fear, I didn’t stop.

Lunchtime was then approaching after the visit to the vet and my mind swirled with ideas of what I could eat for the midday meal. I thought to myself, “how many points is …” and compared restaurant to restaurant with all of the answers being way higher than reasonable for just one meal for the day. From there my mind went into overdrive putting serious consideration into having a “skip day” each week in my diet plan. I was very intently comparing the pros and cons to having a skip day and thinking about making that skip day Tuesday since it would have served me very well at the moment. Thankfully, I’m a practical and analytical person because once I thought about that I turned that train of consideration into thinking about how irrational it is to choose to have a skip day based solely on wanting a Big Mac, figuratively speaking. Again, I didn’t stop for lunch while out and about running errands. 

Today so far I have kept my snacking to a minimum and have stuck to my Weight Watchers plan. I had the fruit and a bowl of Special Kay Red Berries with soy milk in the morning. For lunch I ate a SmartOnes Weight Watchers meal (quite tasty I might add) and along the way I also ate a serving of Special K Popcorn Chips (seriously addictive). That means I still get to enjoy dinner, no matter what I prepare, because I’ve left plenty of points and stuck to my plan. For that, I have zero regrets about the day. I’m hoping by the time my next day off or day home alone comes around that I’m more used to being on this diet plan and it isn’t quite so hard to stick to the foods I’ve stocked in the house. I have plenty of tasty snacks including fruits and veggies, 100 calorie snack packs, and granola to help keep me going through any day of the week. I just need to remember that I actually really do enjoy all of those things and when actually eating them they are just as satisfying as eating something else I would have splurged on before …. AND I feel way better at the end of the day now than before.  So, I just need to keep trucking on and keep focused on my overall goals. It’s only been a week, but I haven’t broken stride during that week. I know I can do this, no matter how difficult some of these moments seem to get.

By the way, at the prompting of my Weight Watchers iPhone app, I will be weighing in weekly. I really hate seeing alerts on my phone and my WW app had an alert pop up this morning. So, to let me OCD tendancies rest a bit and to get into a good routine, I will be weighing in on Wednesday mornings. I have to qualms about sharing my progress, even if it is a lack of progress on the scale, so I will definitely share with anyone reading how my first weigh-in goes. Last Tuesday (the day I signed up for Weight Watchers), I weight 248 pounds. What do I weigh today? I’m not sure, but if that scale shows even 247 I’ll be an ecstatic camper. Wish me luck!

The Ailments


It dawned on me about 6 months ago that the weight gain has become an issue far beyond cosmetics and slowing me down with daily activities. I’ve been keeping track of all the health-related issues that have been plaguing me (aside from the flu/common cold) recently and I’m pretty sure All of them are related to my unhealthy weight.

My ailments (so to speak):
1. Back problems – far too many to name.
2. Poor skin quality
3. Brittle/breaking nails
4. Acid reflux/heartburn
5. Sore/aching feet/ankles/calves/knees
6. Chest pains
7. Headaches/migraines
8. Trouble sleeping
9. Exhaustion
10. Dizziness/fainting
11. Gastrointestinal problems
12. Muscle cramps
13. Irregular menstrual cycles

… And others that have slipped my mind. To clarify, none of those symptoms have been common in my life when not directly related with a sports injury, accident or pregnancy.

That’s a lot of issues popping up here and there. That’s a lot of feeling like shit day in and day out. I simply refuse to have to continue living this way. I don’t have to feel awful all of the time or be concerned about whether the seat belt will buckle the next time I fly. But if I don’t take the necessary steps to change then those ailments and my physical appearance will only get worse. So as I get ready to fall asleep on my last night before the change in habits commences, I hope I dream about a healthy lifestyle free of frivolous aches and pains.

Cheers to change … And if you’re struggling to sleep, instead of counting sheep, count my pounds, there’s enough to help you through a night of insomnia.

Taking Over … a.k.a. cutting ties with the pounds


I just got back from vacation with my family. While in the Caribbean my family had formal portraits on the beach taken. I was the beached whale.

When I was younger, and really until just before having my child, I was the smallest in the family. My waistline always was or appeared to be small in comparison to my family members. That isn’t the case anymore. My sister recently lost more than 100 lbs with the help of a Minneapolis-based program called Slimgenics. My mother and best friend lost weight the same way. All the while I’ve put on more than 40 lbs since getting married in 2010 and having a child in 2012.

Things that used to be easy for me have now become difficult daily tasks. Climbing the stairs takes the breath out of my lungs, tying my shoes is a challenge because folding my body in half to reach the laces feels impossible, and don’t even get me started with normal bathroom/shower/hair/makeup tasks — all of them make me want to cry.

On top of the fact that my eating habits mimic those of my two-year-old, I’ve added desk-job to my resume and find myself staring at a computer screen and sitting static for 8+ hours each day. Every wonderful change in my life has helped to add pounds to my body, and I wouldn’t change anything in my recent history, but now I’m ready to shed the weight and keep moving forward.

I’ve tried a lot of different programs in the past including Nutrisystem, the online version of SlimGenics, Weight Watchers and my own program focusing on using the mobile app LoseIt. Between WeightWatchers and LoseIt I was able to lose 40+ pounds before my 2010 wedding. I felt beautiful in my wedding dress, and I want more than anything at this moment to look in the mirror and feel beautiful again.

When my dad showed me the pictures that we took on the beach I was horrified at what I saw because I was in denial about just how much weight I had put on and what it had done to my appearance. It wasn’t me that I was looking at anymore, but instead it was someone without self-control and lacking self-respect. More than how I view myself, I’ve realized with absolute certainty that if I can’t respect myself because of how I am right now, then how will my daughter respect me as she grows up. How will she learn to grab grapes before she grabs a Snickers or asks for a home-cooked meal before a Happy Meal at McDonalds if I don’t do those things myself?

So, it was while I was on the vacation that I made the decision to change. I know I can’t change overnight, but I am taking steps to change for the better. I’ve re-signed up for WeightWatchers online and ordered myself a FitBit so I can getter a better picture of just how active (or inactive) I am each day. I also started this blog. When I lost weight before I blogged about it and it really helped me to stay accountable because people were reading about my progress, asking questions and encouraging me. So here I go and wish me luck!


30 yrs old, female, married with one child

248 lbs on 3/18/14 with a BMI of 40

First goal: 20 reach 225 lbs (lose 23 lbs) by June 1.